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Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Atonement

  •  I related to Briony Tallis a lot. She was self-centered and insecure. I felt that it was easy for me to understand her sentiments and the questions that she was seeking answers for, because I've been having realizations lately of how self-absorbed I've been my whole life.But the funny thing is that I hated Briony so much after what she did to Robbie. I like the way Ian McEwan could make me relate to Briony at first and then make me hate her so much later in the book. I don't think there ever was a fictional character that I hated more than Briony. Not even Dolores Umbridge!
  •  Robbie Turner! Robbie Turner had every characteristic needed to make any reader fall for him. I just can't hep but feel for him after all of the circumstances that he had been under.
  • And then of course, there's Robbie and Cecilia's tragic love story. They were the only two characters who didn't have a nice ending! Even Paul Marshall and Lola appeared happy, though they probably weren't really.
  •  Sometimes all that we can do to atone our mistakes and to change things is to turn them into literature. Even I sometimes have strong urges to just make everything that I want to happen, happen even in my own created world of words. I  still find it hard to forgive Briony after finishing the book. Everyone had their own happy endings, except Robbie and Cecilia. But I guess I just had to be reminded that tragic things happen and sometimes the merest thing that we can do to save ourselves is to create our own fantasies.

Monday, December 26, 2011

Merry Christmas!

It was a green and pink Christmas for us this year. :)
Haha. I hate pictorials, but I have no choice! 
Noche Buena. A few of our noche buena must-haves are Lays, grapes, kiat-kiat and Chamdor.
4-yi and Royce <3
 Christmas Presents!

School bag from Mama & Papa
Wallet from Sachi
Sandals from Achi
Shirts and a Paulo Coelho planner from Dichi and family
Money from Papa

Saturday, December 24, 2011

My "Not-So-Christmasy" Christmas Playlist

1. A Thousand Years- Christina Perri
   (I think it's a little hard not to like this song.)
2. Breaking Down- Florence and the Machine
   (I finally found time to listen to this, which Nikki blogged abouta few weeks ago. I think this is my life turned into a song!)
3. As a Blonde- Selena Gomez and the Scene
   ( I remember liking this song during the Pre-Bieber era of Selena's career, then I sort of forgot about it, then I just remembered it again recently.)
4. White Dress- Parachute
   (Rumor has it that this was written for Taylor Swift hahaha)
5. She's Got You High- Mumm-ra
   (Because I caught 500 Days of Summer on Star Movies a couple of times over these past few days.)
6. Skinny Love- Bon Iver
   (I discovered Birdy's version of this song last summer from an episode of The Vampire Diaries, but I only recently just heard this version.)
7. Safe and Sound- Taylor Swift ft. The Civil Wars
   ( Best Taylor Swift song yet!! And it's for the Hunger Games soundtrack! I cannot ask for anything more!)
8. Make Me Wanna Die- The Pretty Reckless
9. Summer Girl- Leighton Meester
10. Dead Hearts- Stars


I love how certain feelings and memories from certain periods of your life can stick to the songs that you repeatedly listen to for that certain time. I love how I can sometimes go back to being my past self, by surfing through the waves of memory, when I hear certain songs. Obviously these songs have nothing to do with Christmas, and they don't even have a common theme among them. All that they have in common is that they happen to come across me at this extremely boring yet lovable time of the year called Christmas break. (Yes, I'm almost always bored these days, but I love it too. I guess I'm really just more passive than active.) And I know that somehow, these songs, from now on, will have certain memories from this Christmas break glued to them.

Monday, December 12, 2011

Hotel Rwanda

“Throughout history, wars have been declared and fought in the name of man-made concepts, yet are often tragically reduced to struggles to simply preserve one’s humanity.”
The American Civil War, when traced back to its very core, simply started with plain racism. It all started because of an ideology that made some of the white people think of their own race as the naturally superior race in all mankind, and that they were born with the right to chain up and enslave their much darker counterpart. World War I, likewise, began with nations that wanted to prove themselves as the most powerful in a world engrossed in an imperial battle. The world has already witnessed many great wars and in many of these great wars, the issue of race seems to always recur.
The film Hotel Rwanda is a film about the 1993 Rwandan genocide. The genocide was rooted from not a different cause.  The reason behind it mirrors the same ideology that caused the American Civil War and the World War I. The Hutus and the Tutsis- the two ethnic groups of Rwanda, were both subjected to the same kind of desire to prove themselves as the superior group of people. A desire that came from the kind of thinking that may have had come naturally to humans yet is the same kind of thinking that is killing humanity.
The animosity between the Hutus and the Tutsis had long been harbored and strengthened by certain events that happened throughout the history of the nation of Rwanda. The genocide was not something that only begun a few years or a few months before it actually happened. It is the result of a long-existing tension between the two ethnic groups that can be traced back from earlier or as far as the year 1916 when the Belgians arrived in Rwandan soil with the aim of conquering it.
The arrival of the Belgians in Rwanda finalized a division that had long been building up between the majority Hutus and the minority Tutsis. Although the two groups are quite similar, as they share the same traditions, land, and language, the Belgians made the locals use identification cards to set apart the Hutus and the Tutsis from each other. The Tutsis, who were physically slightly thinner and taller, found themselves favored by their European colonizers as the superior group among the two. This supremacy of the Tutsis was not well-received by the Hutus and what it did was only to further the rift between the ethnic groups. The conflict resulted to several Hutu-led rebellions in 1959, the foundation of the Rwandan Patriotic Front led by the Tutsis, the assassination of Hutu Rwandan President Juvenal Habyarimana, and finally, the genocide.
One of the Hutu leaders in the movie, George Rutuganda, said in a radio voiceover, “When people ask me, good listeners, why do I hate all the Tutsi, I say, ‘Read our history.’ The Tutsi were collaborators for the Belgian colonists, they stole our Hutu land, they whipped us.” What the European colonizers really brought to Rwanda is an ideology that in a way mirrors the racial distinction between blacks and whites that existed in Europe and America. This ideology that was unfortunately introduced to these African groups cultivated in the minds of the Hutus a kind of hatred that only an oppressed can feel.
For so many years the tension that the Belgians have created between the Tutsis and the Hutus resulted to riots, rebellions, and fighting that never stopped. Rwanda had been a place of turbulence for so many years where there never had been peace. The Hutus and the Tutsis were two ethnic groups whose only true dividers were the labels that they had on their identification cards, but for years they had been killing each other. Countless lives were lost; all for the sake of a long-prevailing hatred brought about by a kind of thinking that never should have existed.
Every blood that is shed in war does not only mean that a human life is lost, it also signifies how, little by little, humanity is diminishing. During the war in Rwanda, every Hutu that killed a Tutsi lost a part of his or her humanity in the act of taking a human life. Humanity simply means being human. What distinguishes humans from animals is that humans are granted with all the capability in the world to be humane. If that is lost, then humanity is too. 
On the other hand, every Tutsi that was killed by a Hutu had his or her humanity stolen. Not only was life lost, but it was lost because of race. A Tutsi orphan in the movie promised as she begged for her life that “she won’t be Tutsi anymore.” But no human being is given a chance to choose the race or the kind of life he or she will be born to. To be deprived of life simply because of the race or the ethnic group that one belongs to, to take from one human being the freedom to live simply because he or she was born a certain way is taking from that person his or her humanity.
Wars have been fought in the name of problems that humans have made for themselves. The aim of the Hutus was to eliminate all Tutsis and they claimed that they were halfway into achieving that. But, humanity was lost along the way and nothing good ever comes out when humanity is lost.For those people who knew this but could do nothing to stop the war, it became a struggle, not just to save lives but to also preserve humanity. Paul Rusesabagina was one of those people. Though he was at first only interested in protecting no one but his family, the worsening state of his nation forced him into becoming a refuge to his family, to his neighbors, and to everyone struggling to keep humanity.
There had been a struggle too in the part of the peace-keeping white people of the UN and the Red Cross. One of the most powerful scenes of the film was when the whites were being evacuated back to their home countries while the blacks watch them all go from across the road. The real conflict of the war might be between the Hutus and the Tutsis, but the white-skinned people cannot be cancelled out from the equation. They have struggled too in the dilemma of whether they should interfere or not, because even during those times, there was still a tiny bit of the old line that divides them from the black-skinned people. In the end, they interfered, but a fact still remains that it took them long enough before doing so.
            Throughout history, wars have been fought. Humans have fought, humans have died, humans have struggled in wars for concepts they believe to be true. And now, it has been long since the great wars of history ended, but still, humans remain to struggle. To this day, people are struggling to be allowed to be human without being judged because of their race. A war can only result to struggles because there should never have been a war in the first place.  A war can end, but humans will remain to struggle, because humans have fought for the wrong fights. Humans have fought in great wars for concepts they believe in, when they should have been fighting against those. 

*This is a reflection paper I wrote for history class last semester. I'm planning to post two more reflection papers from the same class, but I don't want to post them yet since those two may make me seem like I'm preaching something that I I'm not practicing. (Basta!haha) I'm posting this to save my blog from the word vomiting that I have been doing in my past few posts. haha

Friday, December 2, 2011

A letter to the 13-year old Vochelle

Dear 13-year old Vochelle,

Do not watch too much TV. Everything that you see on TV is not what it seems. I know love teams on TV sometimes look so cute together that it just seems impossible that they're not meant for each other in real life too. But the truth is that it's highly unlikely that they'll end up with each other. So stop wasting your time!!!

Do not watch too much TV. Instead, read, write, draw, paint, sew, bake, plant a tree, cook, learn every skill there is to know.

Do not eat too much Boy Bawang and other junk foods.

I hate the songs that you like. hahaha I really do. But then, I'm not going to stop you from liking them because I guess everyone goes through a phase they'll be so embarrassed about after a few years. Who knows, maybe after a few years I'll be embarrassed about the things that I like now. So, I'm not stopping you, you'll get over things anyway. I'm not stopping you from liking High School Musical either.  I have nothing against it. Actually, I still sort of like it and every time I hear the songs or watch it now, it brings me back to being you :)

I hope you make an effort to become a better friend to the people around you. The friends that you have now are essentially good people no matter how annoying they can sometimes be. Actually, they're not annoying. I hate to break it to you, but it's not them, it's you! Don't be too self-centered!  Appreciate people more.

You have some serious social anxiety problems. Stop distorting reality and start dealing with them before you go to college.

I don't want to tell you that life isn't as perfect as you thought, or that life doesn't always magically transform into your idea of how it should be because I know you'll found out on your own sooner or later anyway.

I'm not sure if I should tell you to study harder because I know you won't no matter how many times you hear it said to you. But I really wish you would.

I hope you'd start thinking about what you want to do with your life. So you won't grow up to be eighteen years old and still not have a clear idea of what you want.

I hope you'll learn not to be too afraid. I hope you'll learn it for me.

A few of the things I'm preaching to you right now are actually still the things I preach to myself today. But I want you to do these things to set the path straight for me.

XOXO,
18-year old Vochelle